4:28 night, 31/31/31

i cant sleep right now
even tho i woke up at 9 yesteday, but yes still cant.

there's a lot of things going in my mind right now.
i need someone to talk to, but my avril is sleeping (kena marah sebab kacau dia tido ); ).
i hate this, waking up in the middle of night. i wish i can call my avril, and talk to her til morning.

i am happy right now, with what i have, people around me, my lovely girlfriend.
but, i am scared. i am scared right now, its 4:35AM.

im not scared of dying. im not scared of anything. im just scared of losing the one that i love so much. i was alone. if so, i will be alone again.

its been 31days. and i know it will be 31weeks, 31 months, and another 31years. dont change darling, even a bit. u knw wht i mean.

forgive me for my wrongs, forgive me for my words, if i did.

pls get well soon darling. Take my heart, take my blood, take my bone, take my life, if its needed. i live for nothing before, now i live for you.

i gotta take care of someone. she's not feeling well.

i love you.
4:43am,

out.