heck.

hi,
it is now 630pm, monday 26 disember, a day after the xmas.
i still sleep at 8, wake up around 3. its been like, a week i've become like a zombie. reason is, been thinking alot of myself.
honestly, i've been shocked by who i think my good friend was, said about me. and it goes like this

"Because of you I try my hardest just to forget everything Because of you I dont know how to let anyone else in Because of you I'm ashamed of my life because its empty Because of you I am afraid
FUCK YOU n Ur LIFE n Ur FUCKING BAND 'n' also Ur FUCKING HOMETOWN"

well, one thing i wanna say to you is, you have no rights, to judge me, no fucking rights,to fuck my life, and no fucking rights, to say that to my band, and no fucking fucking rights, to say that to my hometown. you dont even know me, you dont even know when my bday is, and you know nothing about me. fuck? say that to yourself, and fucking blame yourself for not ever trying to care about it.

yeah i know your life is just pathetic, and you try to run away from your past, and you came from a miserable town and try to escape from it. u know what, just face it. the thing with you and your exs , you and your cousins, you and your fancy petbro, you and your life, and you with your ugly myspace are just misery. yea, guys in your myspace is like jerks

you cant even accept the facts to accept a guy in your life. bullshit if you say that you care. you never done with your past, you keep moaning about your exs.try to act cool infront of your friends? hmm i dont know about that.

im sorry for what i've done, im gonna pay for them. but YOU DONT HAVE THE RIGHT TO SAY THAT TO MY LIFE. NOT FUCKING EVER. BLAME YOURSELF FOR NOT EVEN CARE ABOUT ME. YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ME, YOU NEVER KNEW MY BAND, AND YOU NEVER LIVE IN MY TOWN. thats ashame.

i've lost my respect to you friend. totally.