Thursday, December 25, 2008

how much

how much it cost you to make other people smile?
10 ringgit? 10 litres of petrol?
a call? an sms?

thnk abt it

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Lucky Number 7

(do me a favor please, download this song wait for it and listen to it while you read this post :)

next year is already 2009,
well that means, i've been 7 years in university education. lucky number 7 ayy?

yes its true, i enrolled to this magnificent uni, back in 2002. ( i think i've already wrote bout this, but hey, who cares?)
it was back in 2002, a year after i finished my secondary school, or what they call "high schoool". honestly, i never really wanted to go anywhere. mmu was my choice.
i still remember, back in september 2002, first day im in mmu. i was so excited to be there. my plan was easy, get to know as much great people as i can, experience the life, and lastly, get a degree. i was at multimedia university , in melaka back then. taking a diploma in Business information system. well, that isnt what i wanna do. so a semester after that, i joined the EEP (early entrance programme), and then moved to MMU Cyberjaya, to join the faculty of creative multimedia, taking a degree.

and that was 2002, and boom! next year its gonna be 2009, 7 lucky years.
for that long period of me being in this university, i dont think i had enough of it - getting to know new people, old people, lecturers, friends, all the sweat and tears.

and people, repeatedly asking me "bila nak grad?" .

honestly, i dont know how to answer that, and give a good answer that they can chew em up. i hope by giving these answer, you guys can properly understand it and not ask about it anymore.

the answer:
financially, i not in the position that i can finish my studies in a short self-sponsored, not by my parents, by myself. So i had to figure shit to find cash for my study, and my living. you'd probably wont understand this, so skip.

and for most part is, im not like most people. most people go to university , so they can get degree and probably land a good job after that. im not worry about what im gonna do after this, and i dont care if i ever get that scroll or not, what matter is the experience, the knowledge, the skills, the people, the things that ive met for my whole entire time here.

i might be here for another year, 2 years, 5 years, who knows? maybe but hey.
its not that i can just come back here when im 50 , and still be me now and do all the stuffs i like doing now.

im gonna be 25 next year, im still the person you knew back in 97, and will still be the same hopefully.

this post dedicated to everyone who still in university, struggling and striving everyday to achieve what they want to.

dont be too serious in life, or you will never get out alive

Wednesday, December 17, 2008


i found something interesting, taken from a friend's blog entry long time ago.

isnt it? :b


i got fascinated by things.
if i like it, i learn about it.
the more things i like, the more things i learn.
the more i learn, the richer i be.
yes i am rich.
i am rich of things inside my brain.

go learn things. read more books.
Not the kind of fancy books that you're reading.
learn your history, learn your own history.
if Nicola Tesla does not ring any bells to you,
go to google and find out what he invented that are so important to you.
then you'll know what kind of education that you're having right now..

this goes to everyone , in any educational institution right now.

Monday, December 15, 2008


aku baru saja terjaga dari tidur, erm bukan tidur sbenarnya, tapi tidur sebab sakit yg amat, migrain+ demam+loya+ apa saja lah.
skrg feeling a bit better, sudah 5 hari sakit, well. kerja pun apa tak buat.
kenapa at this time every year aku akan sakit. last year sakit teruk jugak.
almost 2 weeks tak bole buat apa apa. backpain yg teruk. nak tidur tak bole, nak duduk tak bole, kena berdiri. tu pun tak bole lama.
a week before this pun aku sakit jugak. tapi disclosed sakit apa. dan semua ni membuatkan aku berfikir, sejauh mana kita akan sihat, sampai kita sakit. sakit dan tak bole buat apa apa.
bagi org yang selalu endurance sakit mcm aku ni, mungkin paham sikit2 betapa nikmat nya bangun hari hari sihat walafiat.

gunakanlah kesihatan anda, untuk menjenguk mak bapak, kerja baik baik, hulur duit kat depa, adik2 , jgn dok beli dadah ka apa, jenguk la kawan2, kawan2 lama, kawan2 skolah, apa sangat nak saving duit tu.
takkan nak tunggu kawan2 sakit baru nak melawat? atau tunggu anda sendiri sakit, baru depa mai melawat? tah mai ka tah dak ka.

ini la yg aku byk rasakan sekarang. kawan2 aku byk caught up dengan kerja masing, aku tau busy. tak tak busy mcm President america pun. terlalu sangat mengejar duit dan awek, sampai takmau lepak dgn kawan2. alasan : "busy la weh, kerja design.."
fakof la wei, aku pernah kerja jugak. lagi lama daripada hampa semua kerja.

sorry terkasar bahasa.

aku bukan apa, latih la diri hampa untuk kurangkan "busy" tu.
skrg, tak kawin, tak apa, dah busy teruk.
cuba bayang kalau dah kawin?

peace yaw

Sunday, December 14, 2008


i wanna wrap up my 2008 soon. i'll write em all
its gonna be ... whoa!

lets wait

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

the WWW and internet and WEB!

yerp, selamat hari raya aidiladha to everyone! (that still read this blog)

oh well, im no fancy blogger with fancy stories. i prefer not to write it here if i can.
im still olskool - meet people outside and lets talk til morning.
oh, speakign about that, i miss that.

i mean, look at us. what has the internet done to us?
lets reverse back to my time, back in 1996, when internet is just new . jaring brought it to malaysia.

i was in standard 6, there was no internet. no mp3s, no social networking site, no napster, no google, chatting, no ym, no whatsoever. the only medium you can use, is home phone ! yeah bebeh, getting the trouble of calling the person at home, and sometimes u gotta go tru few "firewalls" . hahaha, what i mean, their parents, sisters or whatever !

well i miss that. for those who dont owns home phone, we hav to go to their house and shout their name. ahahha

you know why i miss all that and i hates internet so much?
yes its true, internet give the endless opportunities to keep in touch with your friends, and to get to know new friends. i admit it, since i plug myself into the internet, ive got myself so many friends from it.

but why its bad?

because, for example, A and B live in the same town, they always chatting together, read each other's blog or do the social-networking thingy. they will just chat and chat, because its "easier" and "simpler", and you can keep your fat up your ass more!

people became so lazy ! A and B wont have that excitement of meeting and hanging out with each other anymore. you chat and do so many stuffs on the net, and you have less and less things to tell each other. think about a situation, when you're somewhere like at the airport, and u meet a friend that u havent meet for like 3 years!

think about it. its about human interactions and socialization .
its getting lesser, and lesser each day. i've seen this. its getting bad. people spent too much time on the internet, you'd probably miss out so many things out there.
ive been there, and done that. and i see people still get hype on things like facebook. its pure eeevil . its a tool. tool of the unknown .

let me tell you what i think about this, and why im spending my time writing this thing.
lets go through the internet timeframe in malaysia first.

1996 - internet first available to public, via Jaring
1997 - IRC is getting hot and hotter! another reason why you should learn to use internet
1998 - popular mIRC clients was available on almost every PC you can find!
1998 - CyberCafe grew like mushrooms ! rapidly opened everywhere
1999 - the WWW is getting hotter, no social network website available yet. people start to write their own web log. or as known as BLOG today. community sites like circles99 and communityzero rapidly growing
2000 - The golden era of IRC ! i was a part of this.
2001 - After almost 7 years, IRC was doomed ! servers blocked malaysian users, people getting bored. almost 70% left IRC. by this time, people just use internet not more than 1 hour everyday
2002 - The Dawn of SOCIAL Networking! Friendster was available to public ! people so caught up with the "testimonial" thingy, and internet became hot again. people spent sooo much time on this.
2003 - Myspace was born! - i dont have to say much about this. now they have like millions of users registered. my id number was 666306, try to figure out whats yours and compare to my number (:
2004 - FREE blogging websites available. blogger, fotopages, and many more! people dont have to buy their own webspace for blog anymore.
2005 - email getting bigger and bigger!Flickr, fotopages was born.
2006 - everybody will have at least a SITE on the internet.
2007 - Facebook was born! and people get hype for their web2.0 interface, shameful.
2008 - the facebook era, photo tagging, tag.
2009 -??

try to think, how much time you've spent within this period of time. and how much time you wasted, and how much time you spent wisely.

please people,
computer isnt your home, internet isnt your world. you've got soul youve got body, go out to the real world.
its lame to spend half of your day on facebook, doing that "post" thign and whtever.


- tidak ditujukan kepada sesiapa! jgn offended ya ( :

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Ramadhan and Hari Raya

firstly, to anyone reading my blog,
i would like to wish you Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Fitri Maaf Zahir dan Batin , i meant it.

well, i didn't write anything the whole puasa, probably due to my serabutness of life and i dont have anything to write.
but i'll write something soon.

hmm my raya wasnt a great raya this year,
maybe the expectation that i hope , never happened.
but still its a good raya, with good brothers at home and friends, met long lost classmates, hanging out, barbequeing and so many stuffs.

well i'll post something soon, dont have time right now.
im packing and going back to kedah for a special mission.

welcome Sheera to my blog. thanks for reading darling.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

made of honor

its 5:02 am ,
i just watched a movie, Made of Honor , starring patrick dempsey and michelle monaghan.
a good movie, but a bit corny.

well, the movie made me realized something, choice.
choice about our life, who'd u be with, u marry with and live with.
dont marry a guy/girl just because u wanna get married. marry them because you love them all your heart, and willing to give and take everything, for the rest of your life, without a doubt or string attached.

its probably the right time for watching it, considering what im feeling right now.

i feel stupid, and tired. mostly tired.
im tired of being nice to others, being a nice guy, nice friend, or being nice in everything.

for the last 2 months, i've said to myself, to be nice, and be a good guy. give her a chance.
but i dont think i can handle this anymore.
its probably me, not her.

i know im not a master in relationship whatsoeva, but i know, basic rule in relationship is , you gotta be there whenever your partner needs you, whatever you do.

she made me realized that, i dont really need her. (i hope she can prove that im wrong after this)
and she also doesnt really needs me. well, she needs me when she needs help.yea she'll call and sms or msg so many many times, but hey i dont mind.
i'll answer them as good as i can, even if im falling from a plane or dying from a car crash.

i wont let my partner down. and even if i cant answer it, i'll do my best to answer it later.

but, when i need her, when i call her, mostly when she's into something or went somewhere,
she'll say she's busy. busy , busy.
and if i call more than 3 times, she'll ask me to chill out?
and she'll say that im a pushy. can u believe it?

i know nobody read this blog, not even her. she wouldn't care much .
i think i should probably go back and be me again, as what i were before. as cold as stone. heartless.

i dont need anyone, that only needs me whenever she wanted.
if somebody waited for me , on my birthday night, in front of my house, with a cake, i would cry, and wont ask for anything else.

all these while, you said that i only sees your fault, not your kindness, but i think you're the one that doing it.

i hope you're happy and enjoy with your life now.
ignore what ive wrote (if you're reading this) . and continue to neglect me.
you dont need me.

im just writing what i felt. im sorry.

Friday, August 08, 2008



is it wrong for me to ask,
is it wrong for me to care,
sometimes i just wanna share.

maybe you dont understand
how hard to be me
try to live in this shoes for a day
but i dont want you to feel that way

when you only have yourself
and nobody else
when your parents cant really help
and others are not really here

the others leave me,
i hope you are not them
because i know you arent

is it wrong for me to ask,
is it wrong for me to care,
so if you dont want me to share
i'll understand

i will keep all inside this hollow heart
and hoping i can carry them through
until my time is up
they'll be buried inside with me

and when im gone that day
dont you worry about me
and dont be sorry,
my ma will be there
she would be listening to me everyday

until that day
time is not enough
for me to explain

im a loner child
was born alone
raised myself up
i will live, and keep living
until this over, be strong

is it wrong for me to ask,
is it wrong for me to care,
sometimes i just wanna share.

-fahmy, 1:31 PM 08 aug 08

Saturday, August 02, 2008

Saturday, July 26, 2008


this one, is a dialog taken from a UK tv series Hustle, Danny Blue talking to Willie on rooftop

Willie : you wanna be regular people? hmm? do ya? well go ahead, go on.
They're crying out for footsoldiers down there.
Go and have your life run by bosses, bank managers and politicians, but if you wanna be a grifter, dont have anything in life you cant walk away from in a second.
Lovers friends, even your own mother.

exactly what ive been thinking.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

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Michele Branch - Goodbye To You

Of all the things I've believed in,
I just want to get it over with,
tears form behind my eyes,
but I do not cry,
counting the days that pass me by.

I've been searchin' deep down in my soul;
words that I'm hearin' are starting to get old,
it feels like I'm starting all over again,
The last three years were just pretend,
and I said...

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.

I still get lost in your eyes,
and it seems that I can't live a day without you,
closing my eyes,
and you chase my thoughts away,
to a place where I am blinded by the light,
but it's not right.

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold on to.

Ooh whoa....
and it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time,
I want what's yours and I want what's mine,
I want you,
but I'm not giving in this time.

Goodbye to you,
goodbye to everything I thought I knew,
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto
Goodbye to you, (goodbye to you)
goodbye to everything I thought I knew, (goodbye to you)
You were the one I loved,
the one thing that I tried to hold onto,
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)
the one thing that I tried to hold onto.
(the one thing that i tried to hold onto)

Oh, oh whoa, oh, oh (one thing that i tried to hold onto)
and when the stars fall I will lie awake,
you're my shooting star.

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things!

Miley Cyrus - 7 Things Lyrics

Miley Cyrus Lyrics

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared

It was awesome, but we lost it
It's not possible for me, not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I'll believe it
If you text it, I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here

The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like most that you do
You make me love you
You do


i am wondering right now,
who reads my blog?
answer - people and robots! you fool!
(robot is the google robot that crawling across the web to find you!)

blog for the day

well, its 7:49 am and i still cant sleep.
and i think its time to write something.

i wanna share something with you today, i heard this somewhere, but i couldn't
remember it. -
"a person that you know your whole life, doesnt mean he/she is your friend. you just knew them.and it doesnt have to take years to find a real friend"

do you agree with this?

hmm, i wanna tell you about the people that i knew my whole life.

they're divided into few groups -
my childhood and yet still friend, my school friends, my classmates, my uni friends, and others.

i love every piece of them, yeah i do.
my childhood friends always there for me, we always hangout, stupid jokes, old jokes. we would talk about our dreams, girls. school. the bad things we did together.

my schoolfriends are the majority, mostly guys. i never been into mixed school, except kindergarten and the stupid mrsm (that i rolled for a month lol)

and yeah, my classmates are the best people in my life ! i wont forget the name like jai, shah , faiz , broz, pali, anaih, leman , emon, and others! (i dont forget you guys, just malas nak type hehe)

my uni friends! i learned alot from these groups!

but now i wanna write about the "other" group.hmm u might be wondering who they are.
they are the people who i knew by doing something , joining something, or i knew them from other people.
it sounds insignificantly in this story, but it is.
i spent few years back with them. doing stuffs.
i wasted so much time with them.
they are the most talented arrogant people i ever know. i never regretted what ive done to them. . but im done with them.
like i said earlier before, maybe i know them quite long and good, but the truth is,they're never my friends.
friends will never leave friends. but they did. so they arent one :b

allright, so you might now guessing who are these people, or thinking are you the one that ive been writing about. well, the answer is NO.

well, think about it ! well peace out !

Saturday, July 05, 2008

Train - Get To Me

I love this song so much. it gives me some kind of good feeling and i feeeeel so good everytime i listen to this. great lyrics tho
its from Train.

Well an airplane's faster than a Cadillac
And a whole lot smoother than a camel's back
But I don't care how you get to me
Just get to me
Parasail or first class mail
Get on the back of a Nightingale
Just get to me I don't care just get to me
Prokeds, mopeds take a limousine instead
They ain't cheap but they're easy to find
Get on the highway point yourself my way
Take a roller coaster that comes in sideways
Just get to me - yeah

Go on hitch a ride on the back
of a butterfly
There's no better way to fly
To get to me
I look around at what I got
And without you, it ain't a lot
But I got every, with you, everything

Maybe you could pollinate over the
Golden Gate
Take a left hand turn at the corner
Of Haight
And then a sharp right
At the first street light
And get yourself on a motor bike
And if you think you'll get stuck in a
traffic jam
That's fine, send yourself through a telephone line
It doesn't matter how you get to me
Just get to me

Cause after every day
The wind blows the night time my way
And I imagine that you are
Above me like a star
And you keep on glowing
And you keep on showing me the way

Monday, May 12, 2008

Sara Bareilles !

im doing my first album review wohoo!

while writing this down, im still listening to her album for my first time.
but, Love Song has been on radio and tv every hours here and there now,and thats why i'd like to listen to her whole album and give my opinion abt it.

well, the Love Song is really a catchy and great songwriting by Sara, and i think i enjoyed it so much the first time i heard it on tv. Well, i always love pop rock/pop singer-songwriter-chicks who play instrument(s) like Michele Branch, KT Tunstall, Venesa Carlton, and im looking forward to hear more from Sara.

Her song One Sweet Love really unveiled her voices, and also a great song. Kinda like, Michele Branch type song. love it. Also take a listen to Between The Lines , City, Many The Lines, and Gravity.

No doubt that Sara Bareilles got a great voice and good songwriting skills.
Well, i hope she's not just going to be happy with her first album, im looking forward for her next material in future.

download it here (: , but dont forget to buy them if you like em

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Van Wilder, at last.

well, at last , today, ive finally watched Van Wilder the movie.
yeah, the movie was out in 2002 and i watched it 6 years later.
van wilder got out from his college that year, and yeah, i was enrolled in my uni in the same year.
well, few people event requested me to watch that movie, when they knew that i am somehow, in my 6th of year uni.
but im not considering myself as the van wilder. he's way too cool than me.
well, its a great movie, with great lines in it. and the movie is pretty much of what i think my life is.

(scene where ryan reynolds (van wilder) and tara reid sit after they had hockey game)

ryan : so, how long have you and premed richard been together?
tara : since my freshmen year
ryan : i bet he's a tight whitey guy (LOL , this one really hahah)
tara : excuse me?
ryan : white, elastic band, constrictive. You can tell a lot about a person by the kind of drawers they wear.
Like you, granny panties, i bet!
tara : Does that allude me to being the plain, boring type?
ryan : No, i just wanted a visual.
tara : i think it takes a lot more than the kind of underwear one wears to define them as a person
ryan : Like what?
tara : Like their action. For instance, most people want to get out of school, so they can make money. You're trying to make money to stay in school. why?
ryan : I like it here
tara : what about your future?
ryan : you take life way too seriously
tara : life is serious
ryan : you know, i used to party with this guy who told me "van, Dont take life too seriously, you'll never get out alive" .
He used to write for the school paper. He kept babbling about the differences between light and dark beer. very strange, but good advice.
You think about the future too much, you kind forget about the present, obviously.
And i am really enjoying the present right now, sharing a penalty box and a tri-latte with Gwen Pearson, who believes cencorship reflects society's lack of confidence in itself.

well, he's true i guess.
and i believe many of my friends, and students now in colleges and unis is striving their best to get out of their place, and go to the what they call "real world". real world of what they define as go to work at a company, get paid every month, pay bills, get married and have children.
but, most of them kinda forget, of what they're doing here.

they forget to enjoy themselves, they take drugs too much til they dont even stand on this earth, they study so hard til they forget to go out and have fun, they're too afraid of what their parents will say, til they left out so many things that they can do in uni, they're in love so damn much with their girlfriends til they missed out their friends and so many things.

hey guys, i know ive been here long than what im supposed to, i have my reasons.
and im not telling all these just to tell you to extend your studies, no.
what im trying to say is, you just have 4 or 5 years in your precious life to enjoy this.
and you will work for another 40 years and get married for the whole life, and you wont be getting it back when you're 40. or 60. it wont happened again.

to freshmen, let your next 4 years gonna be the greatest time on your life, and to anyone finishing soon, enjoy your last moment here, go out party with your friends, ask your long-lost-contact friends to hangout, call your friends to have drinks with you.

im jepun, hafizi, fahmy, kev, kevin jeps ! out!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

felt like writing.

helo world.
how are u out there?
i dont know what to write, but im gonna give a shot.
well, howbout i tell you guys something .
about girls that i knew, before.
girls that really inspired me.
and most of em, gone now.

well, i kinda miss a girl i knew back in my schooldays.
i knew her accidently via irc , she thought im sombdoy else.
so we chat, and we met. that first met, omg,
she was soo beautiful. i felt for her.
since then, we always talked on the phone, irc-ing. everyday.
but, im nowhr around her heart. we were just friends.
but somhow after she finished school, she disappeared for a year,
it was my first year in uni. then i got her contact and we connected again.
but this time she was in kl, and has bf. i dont really mind. i always too late.
for everythg.
and then she was in love with my good friend. that was a sad time for me,
but im happy for them. but it dont last long.
and she disappeared again, and recently i heard,
she got married. );
she was my first crush.

and another girl is cinta.
i call her that because that's the only name i knew back then
when i was first year at uni.
well, she was a senior and she's damn hot.
i know she wasnt easy to get to know, so it took me half-a-year to get
to know her.
what's inspired me is she has the look and the brain. and we got somtgh
in common abt our mother.
she's a real good sister to her siblings.
and she's a good listener, good talker, and fun to hangout
even though back then, i speak POOR english (til now),
i still managed to speak english with her, LOL.
well, its been 4 years since the last time i met her.
she's engaged to smone now, and getting married soon.
i hope we can hangout for the last time (;

another one is za,
well, i kinda knew her since my alpha year in uni.
but we really got to know each other in 2005.
i like her , yeah i did.
but back then, she felt in love, again, with my good friend.
and again, im soooooo sad sad sad.
but in 2007, we got back together, but this time,
we really had feelings for each other.
shes a great friend and a good person to hangout.
she has a good taste in music, and tv too!
we used to sat and sang and play guitar together.
but, somehow i spoiled the relationship.
i kinda mis her, my friend.
i still remember she showing me around her old town, breakfast
together at her fav place.
well its all my fault. she's in a good place now.
i hope that we might be friend again.

another one is ...
i dont know what to say abt her.
the most perfect girl i ever know.
but again, i spoiled it );
im so so so so sad.
if i have a chance to ride on a time machine
and get back in time,
i'd definitely repair this. this one.
that i cant really do anythg about it.

"of all the roses and apologies,
of all the sorry i asked,
i know daisy worth more to you,
i hope u'll forgive me,
even after im long gone from here"

to you, you know who you are.

i know nobody will read this.
but u know, somehow i felt like internet is like a treasure chest,
where we will dig and find something good in it.

til next time ya.

listening to SigurRos - Staralfur while writign this.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

alive and kickin!

im re-opening this thing.
you guys sucks!
thank you for visiting.