Monday, October 29, 2007

bye

bye, take care everyone!

Monday, October 01, 2007

kemaafan.


dear kamu.
aku mahu meminta maaf atas kesalahan ku
walaupun ku asek mengulanginya
aku tak bermaksud hendak melukai hati mu
tapi hati ini tiada siapa yang tahu
cuma aku minta satu di bulan yang mulia ini
maafkan aku semaaf hati mu
buangkan segala selisih
kita pernah berkawan satu ketika dulu
dan selalu bertukar cerita
sedih dan gembira dan apa saja
walaupun kita bukan teman yang rapat
tapi kita sentiasa ada di sisi masing-masing
tapi sekarang kita tidak lagi
dan aku tahu kamu membaca tulisan ku ini
walaupun pada zahirnya kamu tidak mahu
jadi ingatlah saat saat kita menjadi kawan dahulu
sedih dan gembira dikongsi bersama
maafkan lah aku sekali lagi
kita cuba lari dari kenyataan
tapi kita tidak sedar akan realiti
cukup sudah aku kehilangan
aku harap kita tidak pernah berkawan
tetap menjadi asing
aku juga berharap
yang aku bangun suatu pagi
dan aku tidak lagi ada memori
dan aku tidak perlu lagi risau tentang apa apa
hanya bebas untuk terbang
aku,
banyak melukai hati lain
dan hati ini juga telah banyak dilukai
oleh insan insan yang aku tidak salahkan
kerana aku juga yang mencari
tapi aku tahu
tuhan juga yang menentukan
hidup, kawan, jodoh dan mati
sekeras mana kita cuba untuk mati
tapi jika bukan waktunya, kita tidak akan mati
dan sekeras mana kita cuba mendapatkan seseorang
jika bukan mereka yang ditakdirkan
kita juga tahu jawapan
aku tidak pernah memiliki kekasih
mereka datang dan pergi
seperti malam berganti siang
tidak pernah mereka singgah dan berhenti
dan apa bila mereka berhenti sekejap
Tuhan telah menulis
yang aku bukan dengan mereka
mungkin,
tuhan menghantar aku ke dunia ini
bukan untuk memilik kekasih
tapi untuk tujuan yang lain
aku hampir tiada apa apa
bonda juga telah pergi
ayahnda juga seperti tiada
hanya ada abang dan adik
yang masih mendaki mencari sesuatu
mungkin
mungkin
kerana apa yang aku mahu selama ini
melihat dunia lain di seberang sana
melakukan apa saja yang aku mahu
berjumpa dengan orang orang
tuhan telah memberi peluang itu
untuk melakukannya semua
dan selagi aku memiliki tubuh yang sihat
masih ada rezeki
aku bersyukur.
kerana ramai di luar sana yang saket
yang cacat yang tidak makan.
tidak pula mereka bersedih
dan mungkin
dengan tubuh yagn sihat ini
tuhan mahu aku menolong mereka
atau rakan rakan ku
atau keluarga ku.
sudah 23 tahun 5 bulan aku hidup
entah untuk berapa lama lagi
tapi jika ditakdirkan aku hanya hidup
untuk menulis ini kali terakhir
aku mahu lagi
meminta maaf sepenuh hati
maafkan lah diri ini
di bulan mulia ini.
dan lupakanlah aku sepenuhnya
teruskan hidup mu
dapatkan apa yang kamu mahu
dan mungkin akan kita ketemu suatu hari
aku bukan yang terbaik untukmu
kerana itu tuhan tentukan
aku juga tidak pernah terbaik buat sesiapa
selamat tinggal
ini adalah tulisan ku terakhir di laman ini
you're a great friend.
thank you.
im sorry.
bye

Friday, September 28, 2007

Stranger

Stranger than your sympathy
And this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
And all my fears have pushed you out

And I wished for things that I don’t need
(all I wanted)
And what I chased won’t set me free
(all I wanted)
And I get scared but I’m not crawlin’ on my knees

Oh, yeah
Everything’s all wrong, yeah
Everything’s all wrong, yeah
Where the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
Take these things, so I don’t feel
I’m killing myself from the inside out
And now my head’s been filled with doubt

We’re taught to lead the life you choose
(all I wanted)
You know your love’s run out on you
(all I wanted)
And you can’t see when all your dreams aren’t coming true

Oh, yeah
It’s easy to forget, yeah
When you choke on the regrets, yeah
Who the hell did I think I was?

And stranger than your sympathy
And all these thoughts you stole from me
And I’m not sure where I belong
And no where’s home and no more wrong

And I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
And I wouldn’t be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
And all the dark and all the lies were all the empty things disguised as me

Mmm, yeah
Stranger than your sympathy
Stranger than your sympathy
Mmm hmmm mmm

sorry

you're way more mature than me. i dont understand, why u keep telling people
all those stuffs, ( reader : i know its your blog, your right, your place, but hey, who's reading it ha?robots,cats? its your friends)
and when they read about it, what'd they think. what'd they feel.
and i know it is NOT about me that you're writing.

KEPADA READERS DI LUAR SANA, JGN INGAT AKU NI ROBOT DAN TAK ADA PERASAAN. hampa ingat aku tak rasa apa apa ka? hampa ingat aku suka suka buat kat orang ka? hampa ingat aku takda rasa sedih ka?
tolong la . mai duduk dengan aku untuk 2 hari, dan hampa akan tau.
i felt terrible for things that happened. terrible ok.
jgn suka suki tuduh aku mcm mcm, kata aku mcm mcm, just because its your friend. kamon la, think about it. mcm aku tak biasa saja dipersedihkan. aku pun sedih ok.
its life, everybody's broken. deal with it.

to YOU, i dont have anything against you, i dont hate you, i dont want to make u feel bad or anything.
well if you wanna write anything about what u feel, just go on. just dont make other people look bad, dont blame them. no no, jgn.
just think bout this, bila kawan kawan awak baca, of cos diorang akan sebelahi awak, and diorang akan hate that person. but, kalau awak memang nak mcm tu, just go on. nobody is stopping you.


try to forgive people. they're just people and being human. sometimes , we have to choose between A and B. and the decision sometimes, will hurt someone. with us knowing it, or not. we're not intentionally doing it to hurt them. we're just being ourself. And sometimes, other people might have to choose, between us or others. the same thing goes to them.
u know this better, i know u do.
just read this, and think about it.

im sorry if i wrote anything wrong here. and to you too guys.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

stop

well honey, its not only other's fault when things aren't work out.
sometimes we should ask ourself why did it went wrong.
and remember, we cant force anyone, especially their feelings.
stop blaming people, please stop it. its not good for anyone.

Friday, August 31, 2007

end.

this blog will end here. ( : . thanks everyone. bye bye

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Monday, August 13, 2007

Sunday, August 12, 2007

Hand me down

this song is for you.sorry sorry

matchbox20 - hand me down.

Someday they'll find your small town world
On a big town avenue
Gonna make you like the way they talk
When they're talking to you
Gonna make you break out of your shell
Cuz they tell you to
Gonna make you like the way they lie
Better than the truth
They'll tell you everthing
You wanted someone else to say
They're gonna break your heart, yeah
From what I've seen
You're just one more hand me down
Cuz no one's tried to give you
What you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now
Somebody oughta take you in
Try to make you love again
Try to make you like the way they feel
When they're under your skin
Never once do you think that they would lie
When they're holding you
Then you wonder why they haven't called
When they said they'd call you
You'll start to wonder
If you're ever gonna make it by
You'll start to think
You were born blind
From what I've seen
You're just one more hand me down
Cuz no one's tried to give you
What you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now
I'm here for the hard times
The straight to your heart times
When living ain't easy
You can stand up against me
And maybe rely on me
And cry on me, yeah
Oh no, no, no
Someday they'll open up your world
Shake you down to the drawing board
Do their best to change you
They still can't erase you
From what I've seen
You're just one more hand me down
Cuz no one's tried to give you
What you need
So lay all your troubles down
I am with you now
Lay them down on me
You're just one more hand me down
And all those nights don't give you
What you need
So lay all your troubles down
On me

seeing is believing, dreaming is reality

ok fine, semua benda aku buat salah.
so salah kan aku atas semua benda yg jadi. jgn salahkan org lain.
im the bad guy here. not anyone else.
yesterday a friend, harini tak mengaku.
takpalah, aku hanya rakan convertible, harini bleh jadi , esok jadi org lain, lusa jadi benda lain.
harini baik, cakap elok2. esok tak baik, cakap lebih kurang.

ada ayat org putih cakap - "live in my shoes for a moment, and you'll understand"
jgn la asek hentam saja. think!

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Monday, June 04, 2007

hmm

back from ipoh. kenduri kendara yg best jumpa kezens. and also i met fza. tapi...entah la, rasa mcm i should shut my mouth and be a robot that only says yes or no. its like everything comes out wrong from my mouth

Wednesday, May 09, 2007

hello out there!

hello out there!
sometimes i think that somewhere out there, in other parts of the world, few stranger is reading this blog. are you one of them??

just read over my blog and i noticed, port have a blog too! yeay. i'll link you man!

well it is May. my bday has past, her bday, and many bdays!!!! im a taurian, so, lets read about me. they call the Taurian, The Tramp!

Tramp (tr─âmp) pronunciation

v., tramped, tramp·ing, tramps. v.intr.
  1. To walk with a firm, heavy step; trudge.
    1. To travel on foot; hike.
    2. To wander about aimlessly.
v.tr.
  1. To traverse on foot: tramp the fields.
  2. To tread down; trample: tramp down snow.
n.
    1. A heavy footfall.
    2. The sound produced by heavy walking or marching.
  1. A walking trip; a hike.
  2. One who travels aimlessly about on foot, doing odd jobs or begging for a living; a vagrant.
    1. A prostitute.
    2. A person regarded as promiscuous.
  3. Nautical. A tramp steamer.
  4. A metal plate attached to the sole of a shoe for protection, as when spading ground.

well, most if it is true

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long
relationships. Likes to give a good
fight for what they want. Extremely
outgoing. Loves to help people in times
of need. Good kisser. Good personality.
Stubborn. A caring person. One of a
kind. Not one to mess with. Are the
most attractive people on earth! 15
years of bad luck if you do not
forward



I LOVE SYAMZA.END.

Friday, February 09, 2007

weekend

ok i have audition for the audiowarfare tomorrow,
not that i have audition, im handling it.
by the way, i dont know what i should write here, and.
it seems to me that i absolutely have nothing interesting i can share with you guys,
even if i do, i wont be sharing it to much with you. no no not my life with you.
the truth is my life is boring. all day i will always think what to do for my band, or for other people, for example, the battle of the bands. i seldom think ways to enjoy myself.
ok done.

btw, i still hope that i never knew her, u know like one day you wake up and u cant remember a thing? its pain. its pain.
but no, life wasnt like that.
we have to breathe the air and walk the earth , look forward and live life.

but still, i never wanted to not knowing her. hmm.
nevermind, life is bigger than me. people wont event notice if im gone, not her certainly.

whats up with her? you wanna know what HER name? hehe nop.


Please stop pretending to be someone or anyone that you're not. just be yourself, you know who you are, and where u came.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

do you blog?

hey there.
hello? hello?
is there anyone out there still read this blog?
should it write?

im not a good life blogger.
by the way, i tend to visit the links of blogs on my page , most of are them my friends' blog, none of them are active now, what happened to them? am i the only one blogging? do you blog? let me know if you're alive

i used to have a good friend, and i used to think SHE can be a good friend, but i don't know now. i guess friends can be so mean.

hey! i been thinking to join the sparc talentime this year. gonna bring The Bubbles song to it! visit my project band, The Bubbles

Sunday, February 04, 2007

helo melo ya

what i suppose to write today?
im totally broke this weekend, so i just spending the time at home watching movies and my fav tv shows, theoc.
i did learned something from the ep, that , everyone will get in love for a certain time, or wanted to be love, and one day they'll realize that they actually the thing they need is not what they really want. you might want to have a lover, but after having it for a year,two, everyone might have a thought that they'll need space, away from it. i think i know the reason why.

we need to learn to love ourself first, get to know ourself better, before we really can love anyone else.

Friday, February 02, 2007

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

Thursday, February 01, 2007

hah?

what should i write tonight?
im having imsomnia back! fuck this.

btw, thanks birthday girl for the pizzas and cokes last night.
i hope the lame paper wont be thrown away.
do take care of yourself okay?

thanks fiza for your GREAT suggestion. eheh. i dont know what to do without u.

i dont have anything to write tonight.
oh ya, just wanna tell u guys something.

MAINSTREAM MUSIC, ARTISTS, AND INDUSTRIES IN MALAYSIA IS SO FUC%$D UP!

WHO ARE THE FUCKED UP PEOPLE?
THE SAT TV PROVIDER,
THEIR FUCKUP SHOW, THEIR FUCKING AKADEMI,
THEIR FUCKED UP ARTIST.

THEY ARE SO FUCKED UP, TIL THEY HAVE TO ASK US TO SEND SMS TO MAKE THEM RICH.
AND TO MAINSTREAM ARTIST,

WHO?
SITI HANURZALI? ZAHOD AF? UMAWEEMAWEE?
damn, did you guys ever read in newspapers, or mags, or anywhere,
how many did these artist sold of any of their albums?
why did their album sales are not good?

reason;

1. the album itself.
as yourself. of any mainstream artist that you like, pick one,
do you remember the album's title?
do you remember how many tracks are on them?
how many songs on the album that are really good?
you probably listen their song(s) aired on radio, or broadcast on tele. how many song of their album get to be hits? one? two? do you think that song on radio because its good? nop, their PR asked those station to spin the cd.
lets take a good example, dont take Madonna, or Kylie, let say, we take an artist that was underrated and being criticized, Paris Hilton.
she came out with the single, Stars Are Blind. it became hits!
then Nothing in this world (its a great song to me, nice video clip). both became hits.
even though, she is a well known famous person, the simple life, the chain hotel, but still her songs get hits. its not about the singer, its about their songs (not to mention here, MOST mainstream artists dont write their song, composer did)

And what happen to our famous amous artists ?i heard they get like 15k-30k for a dinner show. thats all they can eat from.

Not album sales. not royalty. they get money from POLITICIANS' dinner, or any RICH PEOPLE's dinner. yeah, its true. and for our artist, gossips talks more than their songs. bullshit isnt?

and one more thing, THE COMPOSER.
do you know the composers of malaysia? i dont want to mention their name here, (because i dont wanna get sued(government is reading this),and i dont know).

MALAYSIAN MAINSTREAM MUSIC IS SUCKS. YOU GUYS PRODUCED CRAP MUSIC. I THINK ITS THE TIME WE FIND NEW COMPOSERS WHO HAVE NEW IDEAS,CREATIVITY, RATHER THAN LISTEN TO THESE SO-YESTERDAY COMPOSERS.


2. price of the album

not to many words here, THE RECORD STORES ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS. THE TOWERECORDS, THE SPEEDY, THOSE STORES. THEY ARE THE ONE THAT RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR LOCAL ARTIST CDS SOLD AT RM42.
MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ARE NOT REACH, THEY CANT BUY CD AT THIS PRICE.THEY'D PREFER BUY PIRATED CD AT RM10.
Lower the CD price at RM20 and you'll see the result.
we'll get more sales, artists will get more royalty, record label can afford to produce more great albums.

FUCK RECORD STORE!

3. the artist

stop being idiots and start being an artist. NO MORE AKADEMI, NO MORE OBSESSIVE GOSSIPS, NO MORE RELYING ON POLITICIAN'S DINNER FOR MONEY (DONT YOU WANT TO SING IN YOUR SOLO CONCERT WHERE PEOPLE WOULD BY THE TICKETS AT RM50 AND 10 THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE COME TO SEE YOUR SHOW?)
NO NO, thats is not what happening in malaysia. here, the tv channel, and the Satellite tv are organizing the concert. too bad, the artist cant stand on their own!wait a minute, these are free concert, we dont have to buy tickets, yeay! and wait a minute, they sing other artists' songs! and indonesian artist song. yeah.people dont want to listen to their own song. whats the song name by acha and that sissy?

i talked to a dancer last year, he was a dancer for artists for concert for a sat tv,
he did asked me something like this,

"knapa artis malaysia tak boleh pergi jauh" (why malaysian artists (mainstream) cant go further),
i said i dont know.
then he told me, "because they are too busy reading about their gossips and other artist gossips, they dont even want to learn dancing and singing"

he got a point!

you know the international artist?
fergie, rihanna, madonna, these artist are very good in singing, and they're good in dancing too. people would go to their concert, to see they sing and dance. a hell of a show!.

and what happened to our artist? THEY ONLY CAN SING (IF THEY'RE REALLY GOOD AT)


4. the buyer.

FUCK BUYER. im a malaysian people and i do meant it. MALAYSIAN PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE ART, THEY LIKE MUSIC, THEY LIKE ART, THEY JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE IT.

you know why?

they listen to radio everyday, watch fucking tv shows about music, vote SMS for the person. but when it come to buying their loving artist's CD,most of them, they never buy it, they buy the pirated cd (sometimes have bonus track, the pirated song from other artist, yeay!) , or download it.

thats not a problem, maybe they dont have money to buy the cd as we discussed earlier.

THEY DONT EVEN WANT TO PAY TO SEE THESE ARTIST'S SHOW.MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT FREEEEEEEEEE FOR EVERYTHING.












I wrote all these things, based on my experienced and what i know. im not just saying these things.
And the fact that im into both mainstream and underground music really make me feel good.
I love underground music, i play in a band. we write our own song, we produce our own album, we write our own lyrics, we do everything!
we never rely on POLITICIAN DINNER to get money, we play at local gig where sometimes only 20 people showed up. sometimes they pay us RM10 sometimes they dont. still im happy with it.
I buy cd of bands that i really like, or download their album, and go their shows. i dont mind spending my money on that.

DO YOU MIND SPENDING YOUR MONEY FOR THE MUSIC? ASK YOURSELF.
YOU LIKE BLACK EYE PEAS SO MUCH, YOU LIKE AKON, YOU LIKE LIMP BIZKIT, but have you ever buy their any CD?

i feel like writing

what should i write tonight?
im having imsomnia back! fuck this.

btw, thanks birthday girl for the pizzas and cokes last night.
i hope the lame paper wont be thrown away.
do take care of yourself okay?

thanks fiza for your GREAT suggestion. eheh. i dont know what to do without u.

i dont have anything to write tonight.
oh ya, just wanna tell u guys something.

MAINSTREAM MUSIC, ARTISTS, AND INDUSTRIES IN MALAYSIA IS SO FUC%$D UP!

WHO ARE THE FUCKED UP PEOPLE?
THE SAT TV PROVIDER,
THEIR FUCKUP SHOW, THEIR FUCKING AKADEMI,
THEIR FUCKED UP ARTIST.

THEY ARE SO FUCKED UP, TIL THEY HAVE TO ASK US TO SEND SMS TO MAKE THEM RICH.
AND TO MAINSTREAM ARTIST,

WHO?
SITI HANURZALI? ZAHOD AF? UMAWEEMAWEE?
damn, did you guys ever read in newspapers, or mags, or anywhere,
how many did these artist sold of any of their albums?
why did their album sales are not good?

reason;

1. the album itself.
as yourself. of any mainstream artist that you like, pick one,
do you remember the album's title?
do you remember how many tracks are on them?
how many songs on the album that are really good?
you probably listen their song(s) aired on radio, or broadcast on tele. how many song of their album get to be hits? one? two? do you think that song on radio because its good? nop, their PR asked those station to spin the cd.
lets take a good example, dont take Madonna, or Kylie, let say, we take an artist that was underrated and being criticized, Paris Hilton.
she came out with the single, Stars Are Blind. it became hits!
then Nothing in this world (its a great song to me, nice video clip). both became hits.
even though, she is a well known famous person, the simple life, the chain hotel, but still her songs get hits. its not about the singer, its about their songs (not to mention here, MOST mainstream artists dont write their song, composer did)

And what happen to our famous amous artists ?i heard they get like 15k-30k for a dinner show. thats all they can eat from.

Not album sales. not royalty. they get money from POLITICIANS' dinner, or any RICH PEOPLE's dinner. yeah, its true. and for our artist, gossips talks more than their songs. bullshit isnt?

and one more thing, THE COMPOSER.
do you know the composers of malaysia? i dont want to mention their name here, (because i dont wanna get sued(government is reading this),and i dont know).

MALAYSIAN MAINSTREAM MUSIC IS SUCKS. YOU GUYS PRODUCED CRAP MUSIC. I THINK ITS THE TIME WE FIND NEW COMPOSERS WHO HAVE NEW IDEAS,CREATIVITY, RATHER THAN LISTEN TO THESE SO-YESTERDAY COMPOSERS.


2. price of the album

not to many words here, THE RECORD STORES ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS. THE TOWERECORDS, THE SPEEDY, THOSE STORES. THEY ARE THE ONE THAT RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR LOCAL ARTIST CDS SOLD AT RM42.
MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ARE NOT REACH, THEY CANT BUY CD AT THIS PRICE.THEY'D PREFER BUY PIRATED CD AT RM10.
Lower the CD price at RM20 and you'll see the result.
we'll get more sales, artists will get more royalty, record label can afford to produce more great albums.

FUCK RECORD STORE!

3. the artist

stop being idiots and start being an artist. NO MORE AKADEMI, NO MORE OBSESSIVE GOSSIPS, NO MORE RELYING ON POLITICIAN'S DINNER FOR MONEY (DONT YOU WANT TO SING IN YOUR SOLO CONCERT WHERE PEOPLE WOULD BY THE TICKETS AT RM50 AND 10 THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE COME TO SEE YOUR SHOW?)
NO NO, thats is not what happening in malaysia. here, the tv channel, and the Satellite tv are organizing the concert. too bad, the artist cant stand on their own!wait a minute, these are free concert, we dont have to buy tickets, yeay! and wait a minute, they sing other artists' songs! and indonesian artist song. yeah.people dont want to listen to their own song. whats the song name by acha and that sissy?

i talked to a dancer last year, he was a dancer for artists for concert for a sat tv,
he did asked me something like this,

"knapa artis malaysia tak boleh pergi jauh" (why malaysian artists (mainstream) cant go further),
i said i dont know.
then he told me, "because they are too busy reading about their gossips and other artist gossips, they dont even want to learn dancing and singing"

he got a point!

you know the international artist?
fergie, rihanna, madonna, these artist are very good in singing, and they're good in dancing too. people would go to their concert, to see they sing and dance. a hell of a show!.

and what happened to our artist? THEY ONLY CAN SING (IF THEY'RE REALLY GOOD AT)


4. the buyer.

FUCK BUYER. im a malaysian people and i do meant it. MALAYSIAN PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE ART, THEY LIKE MUSIC, THEY LIKE ART, THEY JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE IT.

you know why?

they listen to radio everyday, watch fucking tv shows about music, vote SMS for the person. but when it come to buying their loving artist's CD,most of them, they never buy it, they buy the pirated cd (sometimes have bonus track, the pirated song from other artist, yeay!) , or download it.

thats not a problem, maybe they dont have money to buy the cd as we discussed earlier.

THEY DONT EVEN WANT TO PAY TO SEE THESE ARTIST'S SHOW.MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT FREEEEEEEEEE FOR EVERYTHING.












I wrote all these things, based on my experienced and what i know. im not just saying these things.
And the fact that im into both mainstream and underground music really make me feel good.
I love underground music, i play in a band. we write our own song, we produce our own album, we write our own lyrics, we do everything!
we never rely on POLITICIAN DINNER to get money, we play at local gig where sometimes only 20 people showed up. sometimes they pay us RM10 sometimes they dont. still im happy with it.
I buy cd of bands that i really like, or download their album, and go their shows. i dont mind spending my money on that.

DO YOU MIND SPENDING YOUR MONEY FOR THE MUSIC? ASK YOURSELF.
YOU LIKE BLACK EYE PEAS SO MUCH, YOU LIKE AKON, YOU LIKE LIMP BIZKIT, but have you ever buy their any CD?

Tuesday, January 30, 2007

2007?

hello, the not so much reader. (thanks for reading anyway)

damn, its been a month since we hit 2007 and again all of us getting older no matter how. not only us, our mother, father, brothers, sisters, friends and everyone too.
somehow they'll get old, and will leave us to somewhere, or God.
My advise is as always; Live your life as you will never have tomorrow (my grammar sucks, i dont care)
2007, will be a hard year for me. i know.
lets start with what happened last year(s).
i screwed up my the eBay business, now i'd have to start again from zero.
i have so many debt i have to pay back. (the australian trip did took all my money)
i met girls that i shouldnt met.
ok thats it.
well what i'd have to now, is to start the biz back. getting the money flows in back!
now that i purely independent from parent, i;d have to find my own money. do you think its easy?
and after that, pay all my debt back. hopefully by mid year i'll settle everything. and get my business on track so i can be rich again.
about girl problem. hmm im not good in this. i guess... i'll just leave this matter and let it be what it wanted to be.
shit i had a CRUSH and i still can get her out of my mind like i used to do. maybe i do really like her so much. nevermind.
as people say, time will heal, and i hope so.

anyway im gonna leave this cyberjaya for intern after this trimester, and i dont really know what gonna happen after that. am i going to come back, or cont. working, or leave and go somewhere?

ive promised myself that i wanted to go and meet all my friends who is still in college. i should do this. i should. i want a car i want a car.

the facts that i dont have gf for a long time, is because of my friends. i spent to much time with them, tooooo much time. i enjoyed my time with them, i always forgot that i dont have a gf. the fact that, i still have a frame of picture, of my classmates in Form 5,on my desk , should tell you everything.

Its not that i dont have any girl friends, i do have. alot. i occasionally go out with them. but i dont know why. maybe im to choosy or i don't want to choose at all.i dont know.

its gonna be a great year. if i finish my GAMMA year in mmu (the major subject), i've consider myself a step away from graduating and get my Degree and show them to my father. hehe.

and my brother and her wife is coming back this June, also aDam in february, and my best friend faiz puat is coming back this summer. ahhhh its gonna be ghreat.

till then, see you guys soon!