seeing is believing, dreaming is reality

ok fine, semua benda aku buat salah.
so salah kan aku atas semua benda yg jadi. jgn salahkan org lain.
im the bad guy here. not anyone else.
yesterday a friend, harini tak mengaku.
takpalah, aku hanya rakan convertible, harini bleh jadi , esok jadi org lain, lusa jadi benda lain.
harini baik, cakap elok2. esok tak baik, cakap lebih kurang.

ada ayat org putih cakap - "live in my shoes for a moment, and you'll understand"
jgn la asek hentam saja. think!

life aint easy!

( :

hmm

back from ipoh. kenduri kendara yg best jumpa kezens. and also i met fza. tapi...entah la, rasa mcm i should shut my mouth and be a robot that only says yes or no. its like everything comes out wrong from my mouth

hello out there!

hello out there!
sometimes i think that somewhere out there, in other parts of the world, few stranger is reading this blog. are you one of them??

just read over my blog and i noticed, port have a blog too! yeay. i'll link you man!

well it is May. my bday has past, her bday, and many bdays!!!! im a taurian, so, lets read about me. they call the Taurian, The Tramp!

Tramp (trămp)

v., tramped, tramp·ing, tramps. v.intr.

1. To walk with a firm, heavy step; trudge.
2. 1. To travel on foot; hike.
   2. To wander about aimlessly.

v.tr.

1. To traverse on foot: tramp the fields.
2. To tread down; trample: tramp down snow.

n.

1. 1. A heavy footfall.
   2. The sound produced by heavy walking or marching.
2. A walking trip; a hike.
3. One who travels aimlessly about on foot, doing odd jobs or begging for a living; a vagrant.
4. 1. A prostitute.
   2. A person regarded as promiscuous.
5. Nautical. A tramp steamer.
6. A metal plate attached to the sole of a shoe for protection, as when spading ground.

well, most if it is true

TAURUS - The Tramp
Aggressive. Loves being in long
relationships. Likes to give a good
fight for what they want. Extremely
outgoing. Loves to help people in times
of need. Good kisser. Good personality.
Stubborn. A caring person. One of a
kind. Not one to mess with. Are the
most attractive people on earth! 15
years of bad luck if you do not
forward



I LOVE SYAMZA.END.

weekend

ok i have audition for the audiowarfare tomorrow,
not that i have audition, im handling it.
by the way, i dont know what i should write here, and.
it seems to me that i absolutely have nothing interesting i can share with you guys,
even if i do, i wont be sharing it to much with you. no no not my life with you.
the truth is my life is boring. all day i will always think what to do for my band, or for other people, for example, the battle of the bands. i seldom think ways to enjoy myself.
ok done.

btw, i still hope that i never knew her, u know like one day you wake up and u cant remember a thing? its pain. its pain.
but no, life wasnt like that.
we have to breathe the air and walk the earth , look forward and live life.

but still, i never wanted to not knowing her. hmm.
nevermind, life is bigger than me. people wont event notice if im gone, not her certainly.

whats up with her? you wanna know what HER name? hehe nop.


Please stop pretending to be someone or anyone that you're not. just be yourself, you know who you are, and where u came.

do you blog?

hey there.
hello? hello?
is there anyone out there still read this blog?
should it write?

im not a good life blogger.
by the way, i tend to visit the links of blogs on my page , most of are them my friends' blog, none of them are active now, what happened to them? am i the only one blogging? do you blog? let me know if you're alive

i used to have a good friend, and i used to think SHE can be a good friend, but i don't know now. i guess friends can be so mean.

hey! i been thinking to join the sparc talentime this year. gonna bring The Bubbles song to it! visit my project band, The Bubbles

helo melo ya

what i suppose to write today?
im totally broke this weekend, so i just spending the time at home watching movies and my fav tv shows, theoc.
i did learned something from the ep, that , everyone will get in love for a certain time, or wanted to be love, and one day they'll realize that they actually the thing they need is not what they really want. you might want to have a lover, but after having it for a year,two, everyone might have a thought that they'll need space, away from it. i think i know the reason why.

we need to learn to love ourself first, get to know ourself better, before we really can love anyone else.

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

helo

i hope i never met her.
seriously

hah?

what should i write tonight?
im having imsomnia back! fuck this.

btw, thanks birthday girl for the pizzas and cokes last night.
i hope the lame paper wont be thrown away.
do take care of yourself okay?

thanks fiza for your GREAT suggestion. eheh. i dont know what to do without u.

i dont have anything to write tonight.
oh ya, just wanna tell u guys something.

MAINSTREAM MUSIC, ARTISTS, AND INDUSTRIES IN MALAYSIA IS SO FUC%$D UP!

WHO ARE THE FUCKED UP PEOPLE?
THE SAT TV PROVIDER,
THEIR FUCKUP SHOW, THEIR FUCKING AKADEMI,
THEIR FUCKED UP ARTIST.

THEY ARE SO FUCKED UP, TIL THEY HAVE TO ASK US TO SEND SMS TO MAKE THEM RICH.
AND TO MAINSTREAM ARTIST,

WHO?
SITI HANURZALI? ZAHOD AF? UMAWEEMAWEE?
damn, did you guys ever read in newspapers, or mags, or anywhere,
how many did these artist sold of any of their albums?
why did their album sales are not good?

reason;

1. the album itself.
as yourself. of any mainstream artist that you like, pick one,
do you remember the album's title?
do you remember how many tracks are on them?
how many songs on the album that are really good?
you probably listen their song(s) aired on radio, or broadcast on tele. how many song of their album get to be hits? one? two? do you think that song on radio because its good? nop, their PR asked those station to spin the cd.
lets take a good example, dont take Madonna, or Kylie, let say, we take an artist that was underrated and being criticized, Paris Hilton.
she came out with the single, Stars Are Blind. it became hits!
then Nothing in this world (its a great song to me, nice video clip). both became hits.
even though, she is a well known famous person, the simple life, the chain hotel, but still her songs get hits. its not about the singer, its about their songs (not to mention here, MOST mainstream artists dont write their song, composer did)

And what happen to our famous amous artists ?i heard they get like 15k-30k for a dinner show. thats all they can eat from.

Not album sales. not royalty. they get money from POLITICIANS' dinner, or any RICH PEOPLE's dinner. yeah, its true. and for our artist, gossips talks more than their songs. bullshit isnt?

and one more thing, THE COMPOSER.
do you know the composers of malaysia? i dont want to mention their name here, (because i dont wanna get sued(government is reading this),and i dont know).

MALAYSIAN MAINSTREAM MUSIC IS SUCKS. YOU GUYS PRODUCED CRAP MUSIC. I THINK ITS THE TIME WE FIND NEW COMPOSERS WHO HAVE NEW IDEAS,CREATIVITY, RATHER THAN LISTEN TO THESE SO-YESTERDAY COMPOSERS.


2. price of the album

not to many words here, THE RECORD STORES ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS. THE TOWERECORDS, THE SPEEDY, THOSE STORES. THEY ARE THE ONE THAT RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR LOCAL ARTIST CDS SOLD AT RM42.
MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ARE NOT REACH, THEY CANT BUY CD AT THIS PRICE.THEY'D PREFER BUY PIRATED CD AT RM10.
Lower the CD price at RM20 and you'll see the result.
we'll get more sales, artists will get more royalty, record label can afford to produce more great albums.

FUCK RECORD STORE!

3. the artist

stop being idiots and start being an artist. NO MORE AKADEMI, NO MORE OBSESSIVE GOSSIPS, NO MORE RELYING ON POLITICIAN'S DINNER FOR MONEY (DONT YOU WANT TO SING IN YOUR SOLO CONCERT WHERE PEOPLE WOULD BY THE TICKETS AT RM50 AND 10 THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE COME TO SEE YOUR SHOW?)
NO NO, thats is not what happening in malaysia. here, the tv channel, and the Satellite tv are organizing the concert. too bad, the artist cant stand on their own!wait a minute, these are free concert, we dont have to buy tickets, yeay! and wait a minute, they sing other artists' songs! and indonesian artist song. yeah.people dont want to listen to their own song. whats the song name by acha and that sissy?

i talked to a dancer last year, he was a dancer for artists for concert for a sat tv,
he did asked me something like this,

"knapa artis malaysia tak boleh pergi jauh" (why malaysian artists (mainstream) cant go further),
i said i dont know.
then he told me, "because they are too busy reading about their gossips and other artist gossips, they dont even want to learn dancing and singing"

he got a point!

you know the international artist?
fergie, rihanna, madonna, these artist are very good in singing, and they're good in dancing too. people would go to their concert, to see they sing and dance. a hell of a show!.

and what happened to our artist? THEY ONLY CAN SING (IF THEY'RE REALLY GOOD AT)


4. the buyer.

FUCK BUYER. im a malaysian people and i do meant it. MALAYSIAN PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE ART, THEY LIKE MUSIC, THEY LIKE ART, THEY JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE IT.

you know why?

they listen to radio everyday, watch fucking tv shows about music, vote SMS for the person. but when it come to buying their loving artist's CD,most of them, they never buy it, they buy the pirated cd (sometimes have bonus track, the pirated song from other artist, yeay!) , or download it.

thats not a problem, maybe they dont have money to buy the cd as we discussed earlier.

THEY DONT EVEN WANT TO PAY TO SEE THESE ARTIST'S SHOW.MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT FREEEEEEEEEE FOR EVERYTHING.












I wrote all these things, based on my experienced and what i know. im not just saying these things.
And the fact that im into both mainstream and underground music really make me feel good.
I love underground music, i play in a band. we write our own song, we produce our own album, we write our own lyrics, we do everything!
we never rely on POLITICIAN DINNER to get money, we play at local gig where sometimes only 20 people showed up. sometimes they pay us RM10 sometimes they dont. still im happy with it.
I buy cd of bands that i really like, or download their album, and go their shows. i dont mind spending my money on that.

DO YOU MIND SPENDING YOUR MONEY FOR THE MUSIC? ASK YOURSELF.
YOU LIKE BLACK EYE PEAS SO MUCH, YOU LIKE AKON, YOU LIKE LIMP BIZKIT, but have you ever buy their any CD?

i feel like writing

what should i write tonight?
im having imsomnia back! fuck this.

btw, thanks birthday girl for the pizzas and cokes last night.
i hope the lame paper wont be thrown away.
do take care of yourself okay?

thanks fiza for your GREAT suggestion. eheh. i dont know what to do without u.

i dont have anything to write tonight.
oh ya, just wanna tell u guys something.

MAINSTREAM MUSIC, ARTISTS, AND INDUSTRIES IN MALAYSIA IS SO FUC%$D UP!

WHO ARE THE FUCKED UP PEOPLE?
THE SAT TV PROVIDER,
THEIR FUCKUP SHOW, THEIR FUCKING AKADEMI,
THEIR FUCKED UP ARTIST.

THEY ARE SO FUCKED UP, TIL THEY HAVE TO ASK US TO SEND SMS TO MAKE THEM RICH.
AND TO MAINSTREAM ARTIST,

WHO?
SITI HANURZALI? ZAHOD AF? UMAWEEMAWEE?
damn, did you guys ever read in newspapers, or mags, or anywhere,
how many did these artist sold of any of their albums?
why did their album sales are not good?

reason;

1. the album itself.
as yourself. of any mainstream artist that you like, pick one,
do you remember the album's title?
do you remember how many tracks are on them?
how many songs on the album that are really good?
you probably listen their song(s) aired on radio, or broadcast on tele. how many song of their album get to be hits? one? two? do you think that song on radio because its good? nop, their PR asked those station to spin the cd.
lets take a good example, dont take Madonna, or Kylie, let say, we take an artist that was underrated and being criticized, Paris Hilton.
she came out with the single, Stars Are Blind. it became hits!
then Nothing in this world (its a great song to me, nice video clip). both became hits.
even though, she is a well known famous person, the simple life, the chain hotel, but still her songs get hits. its not about the singer, its about their songs (not to mention here, MOST mainstream artists dont write their song, composer did)

And what happen to our famous amous artists ?i heard they get like 15k-30k for a dinner show. thats all they can eat from.

Not album sales. not royalty. they get money from POLITICIANS' dinner, or any RICH PEOPLE's dinner. yeah, its true. and for our artist, gossips talks more than their songs. bullshit isnt?

and one more thing, THE COMPOSER.
do you know the composers of malaysia? i dont want to mention their name here, (because i dont wanna get sued(government is reading this),and i dont know).

MALAYSIAN MAINSTREAM MUSIC IS SUCKS. YOU GUYS PRODUCED CRAP MUSIC. I THINK ITS THE TIME WE FIND NEW COMPOSERS WHO HAVE NEW IDEAS,CREATIVITY, RATHER THAN LISTEN TO THESE SO-YESTERDAY COMPOSERS.


2. price of the album

not to many words here, THE RECORD STORES ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR THIS. THE TOWERECORDS, THE SPEEDY, THOSE STORES. THEY ARE THE ONE THAT RESPONSIBLE FOR OUR LOCAL ARTIST CDS SOLD AT RM42.
MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ARE NOT REACH, THEY CANT BUY CD AT THIS PRICE.THEY'D PREFER BUY PIRATED CD AT RM10.
Lower the CD price at RM20 and you'll see the result.
we'll get more sales, artists will get more royalty, record label can afford to produce more great albums.

FUCK RECORD STORE!

3. the artist

stop being idiots and start being an artist. NO MORE AKADEMI, NO MORE OBSESSIVE GOSSIPS, NO MORE RELYING ON POLITICIAN'S DINNER FOR MONEY (DONT YOU WANT TO SING IN YOUR SOLO CONCERT WHERE PEOPLE WOULD BY THE TICKETS AT RM50 AND 10 THOUSANDS OF PEOPLE COME TO SEE YOUR SHOW?)
NO NO, thats is not what happening in malaysia. here, the tv channel, and the Satellite tv are organizing the concert. too bad, the artist cant stand on their own!wait a minute, these are free concert, we dont have to buy tickets, yeay! and wait a minute, they sing other artists' songs! and indonesian artist song. yeah.people dont want to listen to their own song. whats the song name by acha and that sissy?

i talked to a dancer last year, he was a dancer for artists for concert for a sat tv,
he did asked me something like this,

"knapa artis malaysia tak boleh pergi jauh" (why malaysian artists (mainstream) cant go further),
i said i dont know.
then he told me, "because they are too busy reading about their gossips and other artist gossips, they dont even want to learn dancing and singing"

he got a point!

you know the international artist?
fergie, rihanna, madonna, these artist are very good in singing, and they're good in dancing too. people would go to their concert, to see they sing and dance. a hell of a show!.

and what happened to our artist? THEY ONLY CAN SING (IF THEY'RE REALLY GOOD AT)


4. the buyer.

FUCK BUYER. im a malaysian people and i do meant it. MALAYSIAN PEOPLE DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE ART, THEY LIKE MUSIC, THEY LIKE ART, THEY JUST DONT KNOW HOW TO APPRECIATE IT.

you know why?

they listen to radio everyday, watch fucking tv shows about music, vote SMS for the person. but when it come to buying their loving artist's CD,most of them, they never buy it, they buy the pirated cd (sometimes have bonus track, the pirated song from other artist, yeay!) , or download it.

thats not a problem, maybe they dont have money to buy the cd as we discussed earlier.

THEY DONT EVEN WANT TO PAY TO SEE THESE ARTIST'S SHOW.MALAYSIAN PEOPLE ALWAYS WANT FREEEEEEEEEE FOR EVERYTHING.












I wrote all these things, based on my experienced and what i know. im not just saying these things.
And the fact that im into both mainstream and underground music really make me feel good.
I love underground music, i play in a band. we write our own song, we produce our own album, we write our own lyrics, we do everything!
we never rely on POLITICIAN DINNER to get money, we play at local gig where sometimes only 20 people showed up. sometimes they pay us RM10 sometimes they dont. still im happy with it.
I buy cd of bands that i really like, or download their album, and go their shows. i dont mind spending my money on that.

DO YOU MIND SPENDING YOUR MONEY FOR THE MUSIC? ASK YOURSELF.
YOU LIKE BLACK EYE PEAS SO MUCH, YOU LIKE AKON, YOU LIKE LIMP BIZKIT, but have you ever buy their any CD?

2007?

hello, the not so much reader. (thanks for reading anyway)

damn, its been a month since we hit 2007 and again all of us getting older no matter how. not only us, our mother, father, brothers, sisters, friends and everyone too.
somehow they'll get old, and will leave us to somewhere, or God.
My advise is as always; Live your life as you will never have tomorrow (my grammar sucks, i dont care)
2007, will be a hard year for me. i know.
lets start with what happened last year(s).
i screwed up my the eBay business, now i'd have to start again from zero.
i have so many debt i have to pay back. (the australian trip did took all my money)
i met girls that i shouldnt met.
ok thats it.
well what i'd have to now, is to start the biz back. getting the money flows in back!
now that i purely independent from parent, i;d have to find my own money. do you think its easy?
and after that, pay all my debt back. hopefully by mid year i'll settle everything. and get my business on track so i can be rich again.
about girl problem. hmm im not good in this. i guess... i'll just leave this matter and let it be what it wanted to be.
shit i had a CRUSH and i still can get her out of my mind like i used to do. maybe i do really like her so much. nevermind.
as people say, time will heal, and i hope so.

anyway im gonna leave this cyberjaya for intern after this trimester, and i dont really know what gonna happen after that. am i going to come back, or cont. working, or leave and go somewhere?

ive promised myself that i wanted to go and meet all my friends who is still in college. i should do this. i should. i want a car i want a car.

the facts that i dont have gf for a long time, is because of my friends. i spent to much time with them, tooooo much time. i enjoyed my time with them, i always forgot that i dont have a gf. the fact that, i still have a frame of picture, of my classmates in Form 5,on my desk , should tell you everything.

Its not that i dont have any girl friends, i do have. alot. i occasionally go out with them. but i dont know why. maybe im to choosy or i don't want to choose at all.i dont know.

its gonna be a great year. if i finish my GAMMA year in mmu (the major subject), i've consider myself a step away from graduating and get my Degree and show them to my father. hehe.

and my brother and her wife is coming back this June, also aDam in february, and my best friend faiz puat is coming back this summer. ahhhh its gonna be ghreat.

till then, see you guys soon!

THE WISH LIST

Hi guys, ssup?
im feeling shit right now, and i have mood to write something and there's a lot of mosquitos in my room eventhough im at 7th floor and ive been trying to kill them using my deodorant spray.
it coming to the end of the year now, and i just wanna recall back the lasy year's "WANT IT NOW" list. let see...

1. A BASS guitar. really nice one - well never had money to buy this
2. record the-fucking-death-metal-greatest-fucking-song, haha, about 3 songs and jam it, yah and dont forget to gather back my band. the band name is ENDLESS , does anyone here have other suggestion? DONE this, but the band name is Mind Machine now, and we've recorded 4 songs and more to be done later.
3. I need money, to continue my study, or im dead. well pretty much the same now
4. new tyres for my scooter ahahahha. err which scooter? i got myself another scooter, a VS125 now. LOL
5. yah, i need a digital camera really bad. still... agh
6. a girlfriend. <--- this one, you might skip. nope, not yet. and this certainly wont be in next year's list because i dont want to have
7. i want to see she grads, and im going to wear suit and give flowers to her on her graduation day, and hoping she can fly after that, maybe Pan AM or MAS. this..did not happen as she didnt inform me, maybe you guys can read it somewhere in my blog
8. still, a driving licences (ada dua tu) GOT THISS!!!!! and i treat my friends 300pcs of satay for my Nazar
9. quit MMU and be a fulltime musician, or go travel. i might catch her somewhere. havent quit yet, and still part time musician, but i did travel, to Melbourne. yeah!
10. go to Dublin, and see U2 live. this...maybe next year
11. help my family out, especially my mother and brothers. still
12. a girlfriend. <-- skip. no
13. a singaporean bank account. no
14. a cooper ! not yet
15. b a good person. not yet

i think i've done good job with the list, considering that most of them has been done. the others...maybe later, or never. im going to come out with next year's list soon, and i think everyone should.

going off this weekend to Tampin for the Astro concert again. cya

THE WISH LIST

Hi guys, ssup?
im feeling shit right now, and i have mood to write something and there's a lot of mosquitos in my room eventhough im at 7th floor and ive been trying to kill them using my deodorant spray.
it coming to the end of the year now, and i just wanna recall back the lasy year's "WANT IT NOW" list. let see...

1. A BASS guitar. really nice one - well never had money to buy this
2. record the-fucking-death-metal-greatest-fucking-song, haha, about 3 songs and jam it, yah and dont forget to gather back my band. the band name is ENDLESS , does anyone here have other suggestion? DONE this, but the band name is Mind Machine now, and we've recorded 4 songs and more to be done later.
3. I need money, to continue my study, or im dead. well pretty much the same now
4. new tyres for my scooter ahahahha. err which scooter? i got myself another scooter, a VS125 now. LOL
5. yah, i need a digital camera really bad. still... agh
6. a girlfriend. <--- this one, you might skip. nope, not yet. and this certainly wont be in next year's list because i dont want to have
7. i want to see she grads, and im going to wear suit and give flowers to her on her graduation day, and hoping she can fly after that, maybe Pan AM or MAS. this..did not happen as she didnt inform me, maybe you guys can read it somewhere in my blog
8. still, a driving licences (ada dua tu) GOT THISS!!!!! and i treat my friends 300pcs of satay for my Nazar
9. quit MMU and be a fulltime musician, or go travel. i might catch her somewhere. havent quit yet, and still part time musician, but i did travel, to Melbourne. yeah!
10. go to Dublin, and see U2 live. this...maybe next year
11. help my family out, especially my mother and brothers. still
12. a girlfriend. <-- skip. no
13. a singaporean bank account. no
14. a cooper ! not yet
15. b a good person. not yet

i think i've done good job with the list, considering that most of them has been done. the others...maybe later, or never. im going to come out with next year's list soon, and i think everyone should.

going off this weekend to Tampin for the Astro concert again. cya

friends and family

hey all, whutsup?
sudah raya ke brapa ya skarang? tah tak ingat.
hmm well let start on my puasa, puasa is as usual, cuma this year, its a lil different from past years.
on 16th october i took off from KLIA to Melbourne to watch a concert that held at St. Kilda beach, The Palace. and i got back on 21st oct. (i'll write about it more in next entry).
raya is as always, i went to my kampung dekat Pendang Kedah and friends house around Alor Star town. and hanging out with my mom and brothers. my older brother not here he is in Dublin with her wife. they live there.
And on raya ke 8 kot i went with nasran and bah to Sungai petani , 2 good friend's house there.
And now cuti pun dah habis, everyone went back to where they came from, working, studying. My semester, or to be exact trimester (they use this term in MMU) started yesterday, and i havent register any subject yet, i cant because been barred by MMU's finance dept.
shit la, tiap2 sem kena bar. bosan betul.

and im broke now, after balik dari Melbourne where i spent byk sangat beli kat kawan2 adik2 mak. damn skarang nak kena recover balik aduh.

Oh ya, im working now with Top Response Sdn Bhd, as artist coordinator for Astro's Gegak Gemilang concert that will tour major city like Batu Pahat, Ipoh, Klang, Alor star, Seberang Prai , Kuantan.
I responsible for a female top artist.

Im now back in Sri Kembangan, trying to settle everything up, bills, rent , argh, i wish i have 1 million now. then i wouldnt have to think of anything.
I just watched The O.C season 4 episode 1 (adam tolong jgn gelak ok, aku tengok cerita ni sebab aku dah follow since day 1 dan aku bukan lelaki OC atau TTDI/HARTAMAS yang tak reti buat apa2 dan sissy) .

Sangat sedih lah my Mischa Barton has gone forever, tbe. Marissa Cooper . rest in peach darling. wanna know more please watch it ok?
And im listening to Lostprophets - Always All Ways. remind me of this life. you know.
when i think back,i've lost many people i love over the years. family or friends.

Ada kawan pun which i am very close hilang and nowhere to be heard, ada kawan pun yg dah berubah, dah meninggal dan mcm2 lagi. not to mention family. listening to this song remind me yg i am getting older and older everyday. so do everyone. and made me think that life is short and death can come anytime.

i PROMISE to myself that, next year, when i dont have financial problem, i'd travel around Malaysia to see all my friends, rapat atau tak, in all universities and colleges, cousins, aunts, uncles, semua. i'd be very good if i have car (: . i dont care but i will do it next year before everyone change again, or gone forever. that's my new year resolution.

And purposely i think God dont give me a girlfriend maybe HE dont want me to suffer. its better when you have nothing to lose kan? and i'll use this opportunity to do what i just said.
when i look back, i think the only person that doesnt move on with his past life is me. i miss all friends before and i want to see them. even my only ex, denna which i never talk since ......2001 since we broke up.

You know, when you dont have everything, you'll love anything that you have. i dont have rich family, i dont have girlfriends, i dont have big car or anything, but i do have great brothers, mother, father, and friends. i will stick with them until i die. whereever and whatever i do.

to all my friends reading this, know that i love you and if i owe you guys apology, or i do wrong, please forgive me in this good Syawal ok? hutang duit tu akan di bayar lah hehe.

nothing

nothing to write here, maybe later.
to YOU. just to let you know, you're RUDE!
you dont even know how to thanks.
and as a friend, it hurts me. you dont even know how
hard i tried to help.
"i came to KL just for the job" ? its not for the interview?

today on 4th sept.

last night i had a long sleep again, 9pm - 10am this morning.
just checking over orders from customers. well i have 19 orders pending and need to be shipped out.

ebay is nice. i support my living with eBay
ebay is bidding, bidding is business, business is goooooood!


visit my ebay store here (:



ebay store

my flickr page

http://www.flickr.com/photos/netelie/

i-hack 2006.

well i just got back from the itm's i-hack 2006 and im damn tired. this is my first time i involved in REAL computer intrusion as we say it "hacking" world.

details:
i dont really know much about hacking or computer security nowadays, as i only have basic knowledges and concepts about it. my team mate, crash (esco) asked me to join it, and i said why not, just to gain experience hey!
Last time i remember doing all this computer stuff were back in my alpha year in mmu, it is 2003, 3 years ago. lots of things changed nowadays and i never update my computer security skills.

The competition start 2nd sept with the Forensic challenge.
OUR group name is skullb0x- (taken from antitrust movie)

our task is given on the website, and we need to find bugs, hidden message, doing some reverse engineering, not to mention social engineering (: .
well, we (me as kevin and esco) lost for few hours and didnt know what to do. until we decided to use reverse engineering, reading program's hash code and hexadecimals.
damn i seriously taktau apa2 about this sebab dah lama sangat tinggal.
we were given viruses and worms (like brontok.exe) and we must find what the virus did and something like that.
There were 5 flags to be captured , and we managed to capture only 1 flag. well i think that's a good start for us . esco is studying public service and me studying design. hehe.
congrats to ITM's team they won the challenge (well no wonder because they are computer science students anyway)


2nd day is CTF (capture the flag) challenge.

well today we started pretty slow, there are 10 flags to be capture.
today was all about hacking and computer intrusion. unfortunately none of us expert in it.
i found 2 flags and esco almost found 1 flag but we manage to get ourself an encrypted phrase. we have no idea how to decrypte it and we leave it. we only get 2 flags out of 10.
But lucky for me, for less than 24 hours i learn basic concepts about sql injections.
well now that i know, there's no turning back.
ammar and suff (ammar was my schoolmate) team from Project Tango (they're from UTP) won it with 7 captured flags. congrats.
well today was fun. and it was funny too. hacking is only for my knowledge.. somebody did said to me i should learn IT rather than design heh.
go to my flickr page for more pictas!